Moving on

A month ago, I went club with Edlyn, her brother and friends. Till then, I get to being close to her brother and this is where all the thing start. Okay. So let bring you all back to Edlyn house warming. I know Edlyn for 7 years as I say before. So indirectly saying that I do see her brother before but only after the house warming, I feel that he is my type. But don't misunderstood me, I don't have feeling for him at that moment. So I told Edlyn about it after her house warming and she was like making fun of me all the times. But I always response with " aiyo. Me and your brother is impossible one la. as we always don't end up with out type one." haha

So after the club, we suddenly become so close and he even told me that he had feeling for me. Of cos, since he is my type, I'm damn happy to know that he like me. However I didn't say I like him or what la. but slowly I do have feeling for him and even without saying, he do know that I have feeling for him.

However, nothing is always perfect. Suddenly one night, he say that he can't get over his ex girlfriend.. This sentence had turn all the happiness to hell. Who will be able to accept someone who can't get over their ex. I do understand that he can't get over his ex as it is his first one? So being stubborn, I choose to wait. I am that kind of person which very persistent with the things I want. So who to blame? Haha.

I always been lying to myself and hoping for a miracle to happen. But until the day of my birthday, I then start to understand that I am just lying to myself. If he really have the heart, he will celebrate birthday for me. But I waited the whole day but he never even ask me out. This is the worst birthday I have ever had!!

But being stubborn! I still don't wish to give up till last week. Edlyn told me a lot of stuff and she told me that her mum know.. Despite I still not wanted to give up. However, I really don't want because of me let Edlyn Xin tong. In addition, I think that if I was to give up, I will be release from waiting and suffering?

So I brought a cap and write a letter for him. Date his on Thursday,9 aug 2012, just to pass him the thing and make our last memories. Preparing myself to look the best and have the last date with him. Till the end, despite feeling to tears out. I still ensure to smile all the way.

Good bye to you, Eldon. I will move on with my life. If we are really meant to be together we will be. I hope that I really can move on like what I say. Thinking of so many friends around me, worries for me and etc. I dont wish to disappoint them..

Here a photo of me on my last date.
You will always stand a important space in my heart. Saranghae.